I’ve already written a blog post (ill put link at bottom of this post) on the importance of rose quartz if you are into crystals or a beginner rose quartz is the way to go. It is definitely my favorite and always my go to when I’m feeling down. This past Mercury retrograde I struggle a lot with loving myself, insecurities, and self worth. I was looking at where I am now in life and weighing that as my worth. Not having graduated yet, the lack of relationships and friendships I have. Not being where I want to be (yet) with m art. And of course comparison. There were a lot of days where I was having panic attacks throwing my insecurities onto my relationships and messing them up and then feeling worse about myself. My anxiety was out of control. I was moody and taking it out on everyone when in truth the real problems I was having were from within.
I cannot stress how important it is to be kind to yourself. To be your own bestfriend. Talk to yourself. I realized quickly that I couldn’t keep covering up my insecurities with alcohol or distracting myself with TV or keeping myself busy so I didn’t have to do the real work within. I’m still doing this work. But I began doing it by:
- writing in my journal (which I have a post about that ill link as well)
- practicing yoga and when I say yoga I don’t mean the exercise. I mean deep breathing, deep stretches, calming feeling. What feels good for you and your body.
- drinking tea (it helps! and its so easy to do)
- eating only good things from nature like veggies and fruits (I’m vegan so this was easy for me)
- going outside (get that vitamin D) taking walks.
- listening to binaural beats
- writing love notes to myself on my mirror with a dry erase marker
I mean the list goes on and on. Really anything that you like doing that isn’t bad for you or for anyone else is an act of selflove. Take a day, an hour, 5 minutes and do something that makes you feel good that is only for you! Take time to get to the bottom of those insecurities and heal them. Open your heart and let the love in.
Thinking about doing a short series on the 7 common chakras and also doing a series of posts on the less common ones. Leave comments below if you’d like for me to do these posts.
And as always love love love.
Recently, after this very hard Mercury Retrograde of trying times. I decided to take my dreams more seriously. I have been using my crystals more specifically my rose quartz (because this retrograde kicked my ass in the selflove department I was feeling very insecure and downright depressed) and my spirit (or cactus) quartz which have been helping me immensely with silencing my negative thoughts my fear based thoughts and I have been feeling like I live in a fucking cloud of love since the end of this retrograde. I am sure we are all happy that mercury has gone direct (especially my fellow gemini’s since we are ruled by mercury and I always feel like mercury retrogrades kick our asses). So, in terms of my dreams I have been painting more, drawing more, writing more, I began a poetry manuscript last week cause I thought why the hell not – I’ve been writing poems for years lets just go for it and try and self publish a book by the end of the year. I’ve been feeling more like me.
Anyway, so I wanted to take this time to say. That YOU yes YOU and are filled with infinite love. Your purpose, my purpose everyone’s purpose leads back to love. If anyone needs encouragement to go after their dreams this is it. Do it. It doesn’t matter how crazy or far out there it is (unless your dreams are to hurt others) then go do it. Don’t let your fear crazed negative thoughts win. I myself suffer from anxiety I am my worst critic. I beat myself up. I makeup crazy scenarios I keep myself down at times it got to the point where at the end of this retrograde I had enough and so no more. I told my mind look we’re in this together. We became friends and I’m holding it accountable for all the negative thoughts that come my way by stopping them before they can settle in.
Loving yourself isn’t something that will happen over night. So, get ready for some hard work. Some tearful afternoons and a lot of pep talks. Where you are right now is beautiful. I read this thing and it said “you can be a masterpiece and a work in progress” and it spoke volumes. Lets all love ourselves a little harder go after our dreams and love strangers harder too it is trying times everyone just deserves love and kindness.
love love love.
I was going to do a crystal of the week post for this week but my spirit told me to wait on it till next week and talk about the topic of journaling.
Journaling is an old practice and is one most people have done sometime in their lives. If you struggle with your emotions and understanding them (as I do at times) or if you need more clarity in your life. Mental stability eludes you or if anxiety rules your inner life in anyway – if you need a friend or help with your spiritual self then journaling is something that’s easy and would help with all these things and more.
Like most girls growing up in the early 2000’s I kept a diary telling her about my day who I was crushing on and little details that I didn’t even think were important but journaling or keeping a diary is a sure way to have time with yourself (this is important!) and it helps you to know yourself more and have a bigger sense of self and assurance.
Writing in a journal will also help to declutter your mind your thoughts and your many feelings. Its just a helpful tool to use to help process the day to day and to reflect with your inner self and deepen the relationship between yourself and yourself (the soul the spirit).
I recently began keeping a journal again and it helps me to find five minutes at the beginning of the day to set intentions and it keeps me positive. I know what I want to accomplish everyday. And also five minutes at the end of the day to go over anything in the day that made you happy or mad or sad anything that brought anxiety whatever so that you reflect on these things and get to the why’s of these things.
Deciding to keep a journal again has helped me and it centers me. It can be a type of meditation once you get into a trance and just write it all out from the subconscious. I go back sometimes and read my journal entries and I’m surprised by what I’ve written and what I struggle with from day to day. It also helps me realize how strong I am and its a clear way of seeing how I am growing emotionally and spiritually even mentally.
Ask yourself questions in your journal. “Why does this bother me?” Get to the bottom of things. Get to the bottom of your soul. You can share certain passages of your journal with others or you can choose not to. Recently, I read about writing out your sexual fantasies and how this can help with wanting to know what I desire sexually. I did this in my journal and then I shared it with my lover. This deepened our connection. So, if some relationships in your life need work write a passage to your mom take photos of it and send it. Or simply just writing out what and why the relationship isn’t strong could help with strengthening the relationship from your end.
I don’t really journal about other people though my journal is simply for me. It is about knowing and figuring out my likes/dislikes. My desires. My goals. My dreams. Who I am who I want to be and how to get to the latter. Journaling is intentional conversation with the self and it is important to talk to yourself.
So, if any of this resonates with you; the next time you’re at the store get a nice journal that you feel connected to and some pens that glide over the paper and feel good in your hand (even a pen that’s your favorite color) (or all the colors of the rainbow // writing in different colors could help you with your chakras!!) and take 5 minutes out of your day to get better acquainted with yourself and focus on the most important relationship you’ll ever have which is the relationship you have with self.